During a visit to the zoo several months ago, we were enthralled by the rare sight of two white tigers swimming in the waters. Previously, we could only view them from a distance, lying on the rocks across a wide moat. But this time, we could see them up close.
While white tigers are rare, they are no less fearsome and awe-inspiring as the normal tigers. Yet, watching them chasing each other and splashing in the water offered us a completely new perspective of the white tigers. They displayed a playful and mischievous side to their characters. It took time for us to know and appreciate these white tigers.
Similarly, it took time for me to get to know and understand God too.
When i first knew God, He came across as almighty and powerful, a stern and authoritative father-figure, ever ready to pass His judgements on me. As i walked closer to Him, He evolved into a more loving Father, hugging and carrying me like a child on His shoulders. However, as my marriage and life unravelled, i became a teenager, asking Him why and seeking answers to the crises that ensued. I still had no answers, but slowly and surely, i began to learn and am still learning that He has the whole world in his hands. It is never easy to let go and let God be God.
But then, He created me as His daughter, and He knows best.
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 1 Cor 13:11-12 (NIV)